What do I want? What do I want to do? Do I want to make a move, or look from afar. Do I want to take actions or let these feelings destroy me?
“I don’t know” says my heart, but my mind keeps reminding me that I am lying to myself.
Yes my mind is right, I am lying. Deep down I know…
I know that I want Him. I know that I want Him to be part of my life. We probably not meant for each other. Maybe a smile is the closest attention that I can get, but I still want Him. No one else but Him.
I want us to be intimate. I want us to break the rules, forget about the world, and live. Live just for each other.
I want to create memories. I want him to mark my life. I want him to be in my life. I want him to BE my life .
Yes, this is what I want.
Around him, I lose control. Around him, I want to be perfect. For him, I want to be ready and available.
Yes, I’m ready… Ready to put my ego, feelings, and values aside. Just to share a moment, just for a dance, just for a kiss, just to be in his world. Just. Us. Two
This is not Love. Probably,
Curiosity or,
Fierceness or,
Desire or,
Lust.
Maybe all of the above. Can’t decide!
All I know is that. I. Want. Him.
